There’s got to be something
I’m running away from
My mind is empty
Like a heart is
Buried under a clock
Beating or driving you mad
My mom said don’t lie
Or you’ll end up the same
As everybody else
Either afraid of the truth
Or proud of your sins
I’m not either
I just feel empty
Just like your last pack of smokes
Before you’re trying to quit
To give yourself something to do
Wasting your time
But you’re still in line
Until it’s your turn to go
Then standing in front
You’ll tell what you’ve done
To everyone you know
Lets just hope that’s enough
To make up for what you’ve
Gotten yourself into
My heads a mess
Can’t think with these ideas in it
So I’m writing them all for you
In the corner I’m hunched
With a pen and a napkin
Eating my words and throwing them up
I’ve got too much to say
About nothing at all
And not enough time left
So goodbye to you
And my dad and my mom
It’s been so long since I felt
Rest

Leave the light on
I learn visually
And to know everything
Of the shape of your body
Against me means everything
Don’t wake up
Don’t wake up
This isn’t a dream
But it is hard to believe
That I’m anything
It’s hard to believe
That this is reality

Hello
Can I help you
Lose your mind
In polyester?
You’d look great
In this cliche
Why won’t you
Do things our way?

Excuse me,
But you’re
Still
Not
Ready
Yet
Oh, you start
In ten minutes?
Well in fifteen,
You’ll be set

don’t you think

don’t you think the things you see

are only what you want them to be?

and happiness is actually pain

and birth and death are one and the same?

i don’t want to move

you speak in a circle

always returning

to where you came from

save your breath 

stay in one place

don’t move your mouth

don’t make a sound

drifting around

inhaling smoke

makes me feel less empty

at least i’m full of something

you speak to me truly

truly, you say,

“you don’t fucking belong here

please go away”

your words burn in my ears

i can’t help but love you

you said, “go fuck yourself

you’re so damn disgusting”

so to show you how much

your words mean to me

i’m on a chair in my room

going to sleep