There’s something in the air
Something I can feel
In my lungs
And it’s choking me
And i feel like I’m drowning
And it’s killing me
And I can’t speak

There’s a bird
In my house
Looking for a way out
Trying to find a way out
I’m alone
In my house
Looking for a way out
Trying the easy way out
I’ll call you one more time
Even though you cannot answer
Hearing your machine
Makes it seem like you’re still alive
But I will be with you
In a little while

I grew up in church
Always ashamed of what I did
Praying that Jesus would forgive
Me for being born a man
And breaking my promises
I break all of my promises
The hole in my arm
Lets the bad feelings go away
The holes in my arm let me
Know that I’m still here
I can’t feel anything
But the hole in my arm bleeding
Now the sun isn’t there
To shed light on how foolish I am
I prayed that Jesus would forgive
But I don’t think he heard me
He’s probably just busy
He probably has something better to do

My brother married a girl
Settled down
And made a home
He tells me of this life
I’ll never know
Now memories feel more like dreams
Each time that I wake up
Everything gone in an instant
It’s time to go to sleep

You said we talked for hours
But I don’t remember anything
And you’re scared that I told the truth
When I said that I loved you
Well, so am I

She speaks her mind
When I say not to
Things are not now
How they could be
I’m up in a cloud
Above the rain
Just shows me how
How small I am
It’s not all right
But I think it will be
I hope it will be
Over soon

The engine’s off
My mind is set
And you have a way
Of taking away my breath
The clock looks
Fondly back at me
Reminding me always
That I’m running out of time
The door is closed
The lights are off
It’s never been difficult
For me to take what I want
But I lay in bed awake
I long for your touch
It’s reminiscent of a first love
The kind you’ll always know
Too good, but not enough

You love me
At least I think you do
Like it’s a job
Or more of a chore
I can’t tell which is better
But it’s not that one
I’m tired
Of living day to day
There’s no more
Life keeps going
And I can only pretend
To be in control

There’s a girl I know
She falls in love so quickly
For a week at most
Or until things get comfortable
Because she’s afraid
Of settling down
She walks
But her feet don’t touch the ground
She looked at me
Told me I looked worried
Tried to find the truth
And laid there all exposed
Said if you love me
Let me go
Just don’t ask me where I’ve been
And took a step out my door
Vanished onto the street
I know love has got a way of telling lies
It’s been 3 years since I met her
One year since she died
And I’m still waiting for someone to call
My life’s a joke, just like she told me
And I’m not sure if it’s funny
Or what I’m running from

Don’t wanna wake up
Don’t wanna get up
Don’t wanna grow up
I didn’t ask for any of this
Sorry I fucked up
Why can’t we lighten up
Watch the sun come up
And over the roof tops
I feel so much
I feel nothing
And I can’t tell
What this means